Yesterday, I was reminded of Sarai in the Bible again. Was reminded of how she was given the promise, yet she took matters into her own hand. Out of her impulsiveness and impatience, she messed up God's plan. Was reminded not to be like Sarai, and try to help God or go ahead of God. Promise has been given. God will bring everything to completion. WAIT, I must!
Later in the evening, I read a blogpost from 'The Preacher's Wife' (Blog of Holl Furtick, wife to Pr. Steven Furtick, Elevation Church) How lovely and timely! It's the story of Sarai and Hagar in Genesis 16. Read He Sees You.
Honestly the waiting has been a toil. But I have received assignment for a faith journey, the promise that God will bring everything to completion...I have to endure through this season! I don't want to be messing up God's plan! I don't want to be playing Sarai and Hagar. I want to trust God.
The assurance is knowing that my God sees my every need, every dream, every struggle....and the list is endless. The exciting thing about reading the post, chewing on the verse is that God birthed a new song (yes, it's one of my dreams to write songs) *smile*
You Are My God
You are the God who sees
You are the God who hears
You are the God who holds me close
And take away my fears
You are the God who cares
You are the God who loves
You gave Your Son to die for me
And set me high above
I will lift my hands to praise You
I will worship and adore You
All that I am and I will be
I give it all to You
You are my God
You are my God
Genesis 16:13 She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”
Been thinking about my dreams lately. Dreams that are kept in my heart all these while. Dreams that waiting to be fulfilled.
Been questioning God a lot as well. Have you forgotten about these dreams? Are these dreams align to Your heartbeat? Will they ever come true? *speechless*
WAIT. The answer has been WAIT.
"For how long?' I asked God.
WAIT. Just WAIT. *speechless*
But God decided to say something else last Sunday during service.
Altar call made. I was already standing in the front row and prayed the congregation will respond.
A dear sister came up and prayed for me, "There will be hardwork and toils if you are building something but God will bring everything to completion! He will not leave it hanging. Every dream that you think you sacrifice is not a sacrifice. God will give it back to you. He will bring everything to completion." *eyes lit up*...and *tears rolled down*
I remember my very first conversation about this new game with my Youth Pastor then, also my brother-in-law cum mentor and friend. He came back from a Sports Convention in Hong Kong, all excited.
We were in the car, and he said with excitement, “I learn this new game in the convention, and I want to introduce to the youth.”
“Oh, what game is it?” I asked. In my mind, I was thinking about indoor ice breaker game.
“It’s called Floorball. It’s very interesting game. I think you will like it,” he said, beaming with pride.
“Floorball? What’s that?” I asked. I was a bit sceptical as to how the game will be like. In my mind, I was wondering how interesting can this game be lah?
“So what is it like? Tell me lah.” I asked again. Actually, I wasn’t very interested to know but since it’s going to be introduced to the youth, I should at least know it first hand.
“You wait lah...I will introduce during youth camp,” he said.
That’s the end of our conversation.
A while later, I left for Singapore for a work trip.
While in the hotel room, I received a call from my Youth Pastor.
“I need your help to bring back some stuff,” he said.
“Huh? What stuff? Big or not?” I asked reluctantly. (Sorry! Haha)
“Floorball sticks. I need you to call this person and make arrangement to get the sticks. Tell him my name and that we will arrange payment later,” he said.
“What is it? How does it look like? If too big, how do you expect me to carry back? Do you know that I’m going back by bus? Will we get taxed or not?” I asked endlessly while trying my utmost best to convince him to drop the idea of getting the stuff.
To cut short the story......
Guess what? I got convinced to bring back Floorball sticks to Penang. It was long, bulky and heavy....but no regrets. Why? Cause that’s the start of something new! :)
One fine afternoon... (while Ash, Nat and I were playing Monopoly Deal)
Me: Ashton, will you marry me? Ashton: No, I want to marry my mummy! (with a smiley, cheeky expression) Ash, Nat & Me: BUT your mummy is married already!!! Ashton: MY MUMMY IS MARRIED ALREADY???? (with a puzzled look) Ash, Nat and Me: Yes, she is married to your daddy! (Ashton is still looking puzzled!) Ashton: (Thinks for a while...) Then I want to marry Ta-Jie and Er-Jie!
A while later.....
Me: Ashton! You smell funny! You pooped!!!! Ok, go ask Ta-Jie and Er-Jie to wash your bum. Ashton: (run towards me and hug me) I think I want to marry you! Wash my bum!!
The expressions and cheekiness of a two-year old boy! Priceless! ;)
I am a CHILD, a FRIEND, a BRIDE and a DISCIPLE of GOD.
I am continually experiencing and encountering the unmerited favor and undivided love of my precious Savior, Jesus Christ.
Therefore I purpose in my heart to be extravagant in my worship unto God, to allow Him to empower me to influence others and make Him famous!