EXOUSIA (ἐξουσία)

2011-09-05T00:43:00.006+08:00

Strong Tower

2011-09-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

You are my strong tower
A shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I see

-Kutless-

You are My God

2011-08-25T12:39:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, I was reminded of Sarai in the Bible again. Was reminded of how she was given the promise, yet she took matters into her own hand. Out of her impulsiveness and impatience, she messed up God's plan. Was reminded not to be like Sarai, and try to help God or go ahead of God. Promise has been given. God will bring everything to completion. WAIT, I must!

Later in the evening, I read a blogpost from 'The Preacher's Wife' (Blog of Holl Furtick, wife to Pr. Steven Furtick, Elevation Church) How lovely and timely! It's the story of Sarai and Hagar in Genesis 16. Read He Sees You.

Honestly the waiting has been a toil. But I have received assignment for a faith journey, the promise that God will bring everything to completion...I have to endure through this season! I don't want to be messing up God's plan! I don't want to be playing Sarai and Hagar. I want to trust God.

The assurance is knowing that my God sees my every need, every dream, every struggle....and the list is endless. The exciting thing about reading the post, chewing on the verse is that God birthed a new song (yes, it's one of my dreams to write songs) *smile*

You Are My God

Verse 1:

You are the God who sees

You are the God who hears

You are the God who holds me close

And take away my fears

Verse 2:

You are the God who cares

You are the God who loves

You gave Your Son to die for me

And set me high above

Chorus:

I will lift my hands to praise You

I will worship and adore You

All that I am and I will be

I give it all to You

You are my God

Genesis 16:13 She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”

God Will Bring Everything To Completion

2011-08-24T10:36:00.005+08:00

Been thinking about my dreams lately. Dreams that are kept in my heart all these while. Dreams that waiting to be fulfilled.

Been questioning God a lot as well. Have you forgotten about these dreams? Are these dreams align to Your heartbeat? Will they ever come true? *speechless*

WAIT. The answer has been WAIT.

"For how long?' I asked God.

WAIT. Just WAIT. *speechless*

But God decided to say something else last Sunday during service.

Altar call made. I was already standing in the front row and prayed the congregation will respond.

A dear sister came up and prayed for me, "There will be hardwork and toils if you are building something but God will bring everything to completion! He will not leave it hanging. Every dream that you think you sacrifice is not a sacrifice. God will give it back to you. He will bring everything to completion." *eyes lit up*...and *tears rolled down*

I am holding on to Your Word and Promise, O Lord!

I wonder...

2011-07-09T00:53:00.007+08:00

The Start Of Something New

2011-05-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

It was October/ November 2002.

I remember my very first conversation about this new game with my Youth Pastor then, also my brother-in-law cum mentor and friend. He came back from a Sports Convention in Hong Kong, all excited.

We were in the car, and he said with excitement, “I learn this new game in the convention, and I want to introduce to the youth.”

“Oh, what game is it?” I asked. In my mind, I was thinking about indoor ice breaker game.

“It’s called Floorball. It’s very interesting game. I think you will like it,” he said, beaming with pride.

“Floorball? What’s that?” I asked. I was a bit sceptical as to how the game will be like. In my mind, I was wondering how interesting can this game be lah?

“So what is it like? Tell me lah.” I asked again. Actually, I wasn’t very interested to know but since it’s going to be introduced to the youth, I should at least know it first hand.

“You wait lah...I will introduce during youth camp,” he said.

That’s the end of our conversation.

A while later, I left for Singapore for a work trip.

While in the hotel room, I received a call from my Youth Pastor.

“I need your help to bring back some stuff,” he said.

“Huh? What stuff? Big or not?” I asked reluctantly. (Sorry! Haha)

“Floorball sticks. I need you to call this person and make arrangement to get the sticks. Tell him my name and that we will arrange payment later,” he said.

“What is it? How does it look like? If too big, how do you expect me to carry back? Do you know that I’m going back by bus? Will we get taxed or not?” I asked endlessly while trying my utmost best to convince him to drop the idea of getting the stuff.

To cut short the story......

Guess what? I got convinced to bring back Floorball sticks to Penang. It was long, bulky and heavy....but no regrets. Why? Cause that’s the start of something new! :)

Will You Marry Me?

2011-03-07T14:47:00.008+08:00

One fine afternoon... (while Ash, Nat and I were playing Monopoly Deal)

Me: Ashton, will you marry me?
Ashton: No, I want to marry my mummy! (with a smiley, cheeky expression)
Ash, Nat & Me: BUT your mummy is married already!!!
Ashton: MY MUMMY IS MARRIED ALREADY???? (with a puzzled look)
Ash, Nat and Me: Yes, she is married to your daddy! (Ashton is still looking puzzled!)
Ashton: (Thinks for a while...) Then I want to marry Ta-Jie and Er-Jie!

A while later.....

Me: Ashton! You smell funny! You pooped!!!! Ok, go ask Ta-Jie and Er-Jie to wash your bum.
Ashton: (run towards me and hug me) I think I want to marry you! Wash my bum!!

The expressions and cheekiness of a two-year old boy! Priceless! ;)

Walk in Faith

2011-02-18T17:47:00.011+08:00

"I have never walked on water
felt the waves beneath my feet but
at Your word Lord, I'll receive
Your faith to walk on oceans deep"
(Here In My Life - Hillsong Australia)

Faith is the substance of things hoped for,
the evidence of things not seen.
(Hebrews 11:1)

Trust His Heart

2010-08-13T01:06:00.010+08:00

6 June 2010
Questions, questions, questions, questions.....

You have many questions concerning certain issues.

God is saying, don’t be afraid.

He will take care of everything.

17 July 2010
Questions, questions, questions....

God is never wrong. He has never rendered a wrong decision, experienced the wrong attitude, taken the wrong path, said the wrong thing, or acted the wrong way. He is never too late or too early, too loud or too soft, too fast or too slow. He has always been always will be right. He is righteous. – Max Lucado

“The Lord our God is right in everything he does.” Daniel 9:14

He will take care of everything!

6 August 2010
Questions, questions...

God is God. He knows what He is doing.

If you can’t trace His hands, trust His Heart. – Max Lucado

10 August 2010
Questions.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you can’t understand,
When you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hands
Trust His heart.

(excerpt from Dreams of a Woman by Sharon Jaynes)

11 August 2010

I shall ask no more.

TRUST HIS HEART!

*silence*

Isaiah 41:10

2010-07-14T00:43:00.001+08:00

Isaiah 41:10

My baptismal text. Frankly when I receive this verse as my baptismal text, I wasn't exactly happy. Reason? It's way too long a verse for me to memorise. :p Didn't understand why the church gave such a long verse. BUT thanks be to the one who chose thise verse for me. It has carried me through difficult times, tough times - my SPM days, my college years, when work overwhelmes me, when fear knocks at the door of my heart.....

How could I allow myself to forget this verse, and the power it has over every situation in my life? How could I allow myself to forget the very truth that God's presence is with me and that He has His hands upon me. :)

Dear Lord, please continue to embed this truth into my heart and my spirit. Forbid it O Lord that I should allow fear to take hold of me. Manifest Your presence in my life, and hold me in Your close embrace forever. Never ever ever let me go! Thank You Lord! Amen!

(Ohh...and another beautiful thing is that my whole family was baptised on my birthday, 19 July 1992)

Take Me Away...

2010-07-12T10:25:00.002+08:00

Melbourne? Perth? Tasmania? Anywhere?

Refine Me O Lord...

2010-07-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

Received this story via email today. A very beautiful picture of Malachi 3:3. Guess it's something I needed to hear.

Ever wonder why we women seem to be so long suffering? Whether we are married, a mom, a divorcee, a widow or a being a single, maybe this verse has some answers.

Malachi 3:3 "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver." This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God.

One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible Study.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities. The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot; then she thought again about the verse that says: "He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver." She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined.

The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "How do you know when the silver is fully refined?" He smiled at her and answered, "Oh, that's easy -- when I see my image in it"

If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has his eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.

My earnest prayer is that I will be willing to allow God to refine me. O Lord, grant me the grace and strength to go through this refining process. I know it will be painful and uncomfortable, but help me see You even in the midst of the pain and discomfort. And when all is over, may I reflect Your glory!

Enduring thru...

2010-07-04T00:36:00.003+08:00

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

Hebrews 12:1

Dear Lord, I don't know how long this will take me.

The road seems long, endless.

But grant me a persevering spirit, an enduring spirit to finish a good race!

Any Road Any Cost

2010-06-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

Any Road, Any Cost (Point of Grace)

Verse 1:
Leaving the safe and familiar

With their hearts set on a heavenly prize

There were some who laid down their nets

And some who laid down their lives

Not sure where they were going

But they did not have to know

'Cause they knew who had called them

And they said, "we will go"

Chorus:

Down any road at any cost

Wherever You lead we will follow

Because we know that You've called us

To take up our cross

Down any road at any cost

Verse 2:

It may be fear that we're feeling

We see what we must sacrifice

But You promised You'll go with us

So we'll trust with our lives

Bridge:

It's Your love that compels us

To do what You've called us to do

And be completely abandoned to You

Unrestraint Commitment

2010-06-27T23:11:00.001+08:00

Luke 9:23 (NIV) Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.”

This verse demands powerful and unrestraint commitment as a disciple towards Jesus, the Master. If we choose to follow the Master, we ought to deny ourselves (to be completely humble before God, and to choose to lay down/ to let go of all our fleshy desires AND take up the cross (the suffering and purposes of Christ) in our lives. And this process of denying oneself and taking up His cross is not a one-time thing. We are called to deny ourselves and take His cross DAILY and follow Him.

I remembered when I was 18 years old, I shared this with my cell group back in my previous church. We were just trying out the cell group concept then and I was put to be in-charged of the ‘Word’ part. The topic was on the cost of being a disciple. So I shared and encouraged my cell group members (which consisted leaders, and mostly being more mature in their spiritual walk) that we must always be ready to make sacrifices for God. We must be ready to let go of the things in life, and fully commit ourselves to His calling and purposes. Then, I was ready to let go of everything and do whatever that God would want me to do. I was ready to pack my bag and leave for mission etc. I was willing to do anything and everything. All I need to hear is God saying, “GO!” or “DO THIS!” or “DO THAT!" But when I shared my heart, one of them literally laughed at me. She said something to this extend, “Girl, it is always easier said than done. You are still young. Wait till you accomplish more in life etc. I don’t think I’m ready to make huge sacrifices for God.” Frankly I was a bit disheartened then. But I made a commitment to follow Him till the very end. I’d do anything for Him. I’d go down any road, at any cost for Him!

This whole week, I found myself grappling with the whole issue of commitment, making sacrifices and letting go of the things that I hold on to very dearly. Over these few months, I’ve unknowingly allowed other things and priorities to take the very place of God. And I wasn’t willing to let go of certain things in my life. I wasn’t willing to make any sacrifices. I was comfortable the way I am. I found myself telling God, “It is impossible to walk down this road. It is too long, too narrow. This sacrifice is a bit too costly. I don’t think I can afford it. I don’t think I can let go of these things. They are very precious to me. They have become so much a part of my life. It will be too painful to let go! What will happen to these things if I let go?” (I’m not saying the things I’m holding on to are bad. It was just not handled properly or the way God would want me to).

But how can I call myself His disciple unless I am willing to be humble before Him, letting go of the things that have taken His rightful place and take upon His purposes and will? I know this is something that I need to deal with. I won’t deny that it will be painful to let go of these things. I won’t deny the fear that I have just thinking of how things will end up to be. I know it will not be easy. But I want to be obedient. I want to just trust Him even though I may not know what He is doing right now, or where He is leading me to. I want to have that unrestraint commitment towards God.

Prayer:
Dear Lord, please forgive me for being selfish. Forgive me for allowing other things to take Your rightful place. Give me the strength to lay down all my fleshy desires. Help me take on Your purposes. Continue to awake my heart to have the capacity to contain You. I may not know exactly the things You have in store for me. I would not know the future but I just want to trust in You. I surrender all that I am and all that I have for Your glory. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

Today is the Day

2010-06-23T15:10:00.001+08:00

Today is the Day (Lincoln Brewster)

Verse 1:
I'm casting my cares aside
I'm leaving my past behind
I'm setting my heart and mind on you
Jesus

I'm reaching my hand to yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all you have in store for me is good
Is good

Chorus:
Today is the day you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it

And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what you say
Today is the day

Verse 2:

I putting my fears aside
I'm leaving my doubts behind
I'm giving my hopes and dreams to you
Jesus

I'm reaching my hands to yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all you have in store for me is good
Is good

Bridge:

I will stand upon your truth
I will stand upon your truth
And all my days I'll live for you
All my days I'll live for you

And I will stand upon your truth
I will stand upon your truth
And all my days I'll live for you
All my days I'll live for you

Chorus:
Today is the day you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day you have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it

Last Chorus:
And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm giving you my fears and sorrows
Where you lead me I will follow
I'm trusting in what you say
Today is the day

My Prayer:

Lord, I echo the words of this song as my prayer.

Thank You for this day, the day that You have made.

I believe that You are taking care of every single detail of my day.

I surrender everything to You!

In Jesus' name. Amen.

What do I want?

2010-06-21T15:31:00.001+08:00

I want to...

Cry.
Quit.
Hide.
Run away.
Sleep (but I can’t).
Hear what You are saying.
See the big picture.
Live in faith not fear.

Have divine exchange.
Let go and let You do Your thing.
Be obedient.
Do things right.
Please You.
Put a smile on Your face.
Finish the race well.
Hear You say, “Well done good and faithful servant.”

Daddy, help me!

Rainbow, A Promise!

2010-05-19T20:55:00.002+08:00

I love rainbow! Every time I see a rainbow, it puts a smile on my face. Yes, a :) It simply reminds me of God's promise. In Genesis 9, God made a covenant with Noah for all generations to come.

Genesis 9:12-16
And God said, " This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come: I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on earth"

The beauty of it all does not just lie in the rainbow, but that God REMEMBERS His covenant, the promise He made. A promise is not meant to be broken, unlike what has been taught by the world. God REMEMBERS what He has promised. What is God's promise to you?

It has been a rough ride recently. Sometimes I wonder how long can I stay tough in the midst of all that's been happening. Will I see a breakthrough or will I, myself break apart?
I know I will never break apart. For He has promised and will be faithful to carry me through :)

Dear Lord, please let me see a rainbow today! :)

Life is like...

2009-08-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolate - Forest Gump
I know some beg to differ.
A friend says, "Life is like a box of assorted chocolates"
While some others say "Life is like a stage of play, and we are all actors and actresses"

As for me, I would say...Life is like "cherry-looking chili".
You'll never know how hot and spicy the chili is until you actually tried it.
The same goes for life.
We'll never know how hot and exciting life is until we truly live it out!
And I mean LIVE IT OUT LOUD!
Live life to the fullest, live it right, live it well, make the most of every opportunity, make our lives count...ultimately Making God Famous!

The guys were tricked by Pr. Seria to try out the the home grown 'cherry' on the very last day of our mission trip at Sarawak. I was told...it's VERY SPICY!! *I still couldn't believe they actually fall for it...haha*

My First Mission Trip

2009-08-17T21:06:00.001+08:00

Something I came across while preparing for the recent mission trip. A report/ testimony that I wrote and submitted to the church I was attending back then. This is an entry of my very first mission trip back in 2001. It brings back good memory, and most importantly the impact it had upon me!

SARAWAK MISION TRIP 2001 – Penny Khoo

I joined the mission trip for a basic purpose, that I will grow and move to higher heights in my walk with the Lord. I do not want to remain stagnant in my spiritual life. Praise God! He answered my prayer by shaking me off my comfort zone. He brought me to the place where I had to be totally dependent upon Him. God had been very real even when I started preparing for the trip.

I have always viewed mission trip as a trip whereby the team minister to the unreached through skits and songs. The task of performing through skits and songs is not hard, as I had experienced such things in youth groups. However, the preparation period became stressful when we were given assignments to prepare specific topic for teaching sessions at the longhouses and youth seminar. The assignment is something that I was not familiar with and at the same time, incapable to do so. The task became heavier when we had to prepare and preach in Bahasa Malaysia. During the preparation, I had sleepless nights figuring what to teach and how to teach the people. At one point of time, I wanted to give up. I questioned myself, “Why did I sign up for this trip in the first place and go through the stress when I could enjoy the comfort of each day that passes by?” I felt so far apart from God. I did not know where God was leading me and whether I had made the right choice to go for the trip. But it was at that time that I realised that I needed God more than I thought I needed Him. I realised that is in my weakness that His strength is made perfect. A lot of times, God gave us the “impossible” task so that we will learn to trust in Him and not lean on our own understanding. He wants us to be totally dependent upon Him.

During the trip, my fearful nature was challenged to do things that I would not normally do. God literally shook me off my comfort zone again. I experienced a total different culture and simplicity of life – bathing in the river, Iban food, limited supply of water and electricity and being sensitive to God in order to pray for people. I knew very well that it was not me that overcame the fear. God gave me the strength and the boldness to do so. In the trip, I also learned that I have put God in a box without realising it. I expected Him to move according to my will. He is much bigger and able to accomplish more than I could imagine or ask for. God is able to work in me and through me if I allow Him to do so. I have learnt to be dependent upon Him in every circumstance from living in the longhouses to ministering to His people. I believe God is not just interested in my ministry and how I could pray for His people. He is very much interested in my personal being.

A question was posed to me when the trip was about to come to an end, “Did you survive the trip?” Well, I could safely declare that I did not just survive the trip. I lived through and enjoyed every minute of the trip by the empowerment and the grace of God. It is indeed not by my might nor by my power but by the Spirit of God. God has been very faithful to His promise that He will always be with me, giving me strength and helping me to go through my everyday circumstances. I will continue to hold dearly to my baptismal text in Isaiah 41:10 – So do not fear for I am with you. Do not be dismay for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. I really want to thank God and the team for such a fruitful and enriching mission trip.

You Are My Lord by Hillsong Australia

2009-06-05T10:47:00.001+08:00

One of my favorite song by Hillsong Australia...one that would go well with my previous post "How Strong is My Heart". The lyrics sum it up...

Verse:

When I am WEAK You lift me up

I find my STRENGTH in You

When I am lost, I'm found by You

You'll never let me go

Chorus:

You are my Lord

And I worship You

Bow down before Your throne

Your are my peace

My STRENGTH and my comfort

I'm so in love with You!

=) My prayer is that I will fall deeply in love with Him again!!

How Strong Is My Heart?

2009-06-04T11:56:00.001+08:00

Went to watched Terminator: Salvation yesterday. And couple of hours before I hit the cineplex, someone commented that it is rather surprising to know that I'm going for Terminator and that it is not my type of show. Hmm.....to a certain extend, yes, I agree. I prefer movies that will move my heart, be it cry or laugh! And so...Terminator...oh well, it was all about machines, machines and machines everywhere. It wasn't exactly that nice watching machines but I must confess I really like the 'motorbikes' (can't remember exactly what it is called in the show). Ohh....and I think Christian Bale is better off as John Connor than Batman ;)

There were many lessons and principles that one can draw from the show, besides the fact that John Connor saved the world from the machines. But there was a statement made by John Connor towards the end of the show which tug at the string of my heart...."the strength of human is in the heart." Hmm.....I think the statement is rather true. If one's heart is strong, then he/she can do lots of stuff that will impact society in a positive way. But if one's heart is weak, then he/she will not be motivated to do anything. And more often than not, our hearts are not strong enough to carry us through the not-so-nice circumstances in life. The bad decisions that we made because we followed our hearts, emotional hang-ups that caused us to feel like failures.... Recently, a friend shared a little about the emotional struggle that he is going through. Something that we as human can never run away from because we are made to relate with one another. And a lot of times, our emotions are the things that will zap up all our energy. Definitely not a very nice thing to go through.

I wonder...

How strong is my heart today?

What is my heart telling me to do?

Is my heart telling me to do the right thing, the God-thing?

Is my heart beating together with God's?

Psalm 73:26 "my flesh and my HEART may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forevermore"

I don't think we can ever rely on our own strength to go through the journey of life athough some might differ in their opinion. The strength of human is in the heart (which will fail), but the strength of human's heart is in the Lord!

Trust 102?

2009-05-09T01:19:00.001+08:00

It has been 3 weeks...and the messages on Sundays, the devotional materials, even song that a friend sent to me are talking about TRUST! God must be saying something, right?

It is a though I'm undergoing a course called "Trust 101" and the lecturer is none other than God, Himself. I don't think I will ever complete this course, though I would love to pass with a distinction. =)

Have I not trusted enough that I need to retake this course? Or could it be that He trust me enough to bring me to Level 2, Trust 102? I wonder....

Here I Am Waiting.....

2009-01-19T15:35:00.001+08:00

I led two songs today that says "Lord have Your way...". Very easy to sing, but to mean it? I've been waiting for a promise to unfold. It has been a long ten years (as far as I can remember!) I've prayed. I've claimed the promise. I've surrendered. I've laid it at the altar. I've stopped praying. God knows how many cycles of prayer and surrendering I've been through.

The unfulfilled promise resurfaced again. I can't help but to wonder if God has forgotten about me and the promise. Everytime I prayed (for the past ten years)...the answer has been TO WAIT!

This week, my devotion has been on Sarah (yes, Abraham's wife, the one who messed up with God's plan but got her promised fulfilled though she didn't believe it at first) The challenge, the focal point for this week is about "waiting". Yes, waiting, it is! Sarah waited for a long time to see her promise of giving birth to a son being fulfilled.

Here's what the Deovotional Book "Women of the Bible by Ann Spangler" says....
Reflection: Genesis 17:1-22
Praise God: Because He keeps His promises!
Offer Thanks: That God has a gracious plan for me that will unfold in HIS TIME, according to HIS WAY
Confess: My anxiety and self-reliance
Ask God: To help me WAIT with a listening ear and a ready heart to do His will.

As I questioned God, I was also humbled by the fact that everything happens according to His perfect timing and ways. He is Lord, I am not! My prayer is that I will not dwell in the "why isn't it happening"...but that I will be able to see things through His eyes. And in the midst of waiting, I will continue to delight in Him, and ready to do His will!

So Lord, here I am waiting........ =)

Dormant? Year of Possibilities!!!!!!!

2009-01-19T15:15:00.001+08:00

Oh yes! My blog has been lying dormant for who knows since when. Everytime something interesting happened in my life, I wanted to write. Yes, I really wanted to write BUT.... *grin* And when I read other people's blogs, I was totally inspired and I wanted to write BUT... *grin*.... BUT everytime when I wanted to put it into action...my brain just refuses to cooperate. Just as my blog has been lying dormant, I was reminded of some of the dreams/ passions that have been lying dormant in me. God plays a big part in fulfilling those dreams, but there are also those that I've not seriously pursue, or may have forgotten about them... *grins*

The church (http://www.gatewaycity.com.my/) had an awesome Watchnite Service on the 31st Dec 2008. Everyone was encouraged to give a creative offering, ranging from cooking some delicacies for the supper cum fellowship time, to dancing, to presenting a multimedia, to singing, to anything you can think of. Almost everyone in the church took part. Best watchnite ever!

We, as a church and as individuals, kicked off Year 2009 as the YEAR OF POSSIBILITIES. Pr. Edward challenged us to be bold! Bold to claim our promises!! Bold to speak to the mountain, and let it be removed!! My question is...."how bold can I or do I want to be?" A lot of times, I think it's a matter of how much I want to step out of my comfort zone and make things happen, or rather to allow God to make things happen in my life.

I want to believe, step out and claim all the possibilities for my dreams!

Gateway Watchnite Service 2008

My New Toy

2008-08-18T14:40:00.001+08:00

YAY! Finally got my new toy! ;) Been waiting for quite a while but this really great friend of mine couldn't find time to help me set up the necessary programs. God is good! So is this friend...thanks Peter! Truly appreciate your time and effort. =)

So yea...my new toy! I'm exploring it right now, and trying to blog! So here it is...dedicating this blog to my new toy and God who made it possible!

Faith Journey

2008-07-16T20:18:00.001+08:00

Last March, I had an awesome privilege to be part of 16,000 women in the Hillsong Color Conference. I've never thought I could be there again in Sydney for such a huge conference. My last time there was for Hillsong Conference, well many many years ago. Both trips were a gift from the Heavenly Father! But this recent trip was truly a step of faith. I didn't have any cent to begin with. Sis helped booked the flight ticket...by faith! Prayer wasn't as intense until after CNY. That's when we had to pay the tour agency. Frankly, I was very worried about where the money would come from. I've even contemplated forgoing the conference fee, reimburse Edlina who had generously paid for me and another friend. This journey of faith seemed so out of mind. I remembered my conversation with dad and how he seemed a lil upset with our actions. He actually said this "You guys are crazy already to do such a thing!" and then, he shook his head. I couldn't explain my actions then. I wanted so much to tell him that actually "I'm very fearful, and I really do not know where the money would come from but I feel that God is teaching me to trust in Him. I think God can provide qua!" Sigh.... Part of me was like, "It's ok Penny, God is in control!", and the other part was like, "But God...when? When will you show forth your miracle?" All I can cling on to was His promise in Matthew 7:7 and also a little plaque thing that was on my parents door that says "Trust in the Lord". The wordings had never been so OBVIOUS in the house till that very point!

To cut the long story short, prayers upon prayers, and those sleepless nights and God who kept reassuring me of His provision....He certainly STEPPED IN and provided miraculously. I went to draw out money from ATM machine and found extra cash in my account....who else but God who moved the hearts of His people to give generously! This is truly God's grace in action. I experienced His unmerited favor.

God's fingerprints were definitely on my whole Australian trip. Food, accommodation and transportation were all almost taken care of by friends! It's truly amazing how God put everything in place for sis and I. To God be the glory!

A Must Share!

2008-05-31T15:00:00.001+08:00

It's been months since my last post. I've been wanting to post on the amazing journeys that I've had the past months but then....yes, then I keep procrastinating and hence, there was no updates. =) My humble apology to those who have been dropping by and found nothing.

But I do owe myself at least 3 interesting posts....journey of faith to Australia, sweet victory in Penang Floorball League and last but not least the addition to the family, Prince Ashton! I will definitely share...just wait....

But this very post is something I felt in my spirit that I must share! MUST! It has been a pretty nerve wrecking week. I felt so overpowered by enormous tasks ahead of me and the concerns surrounding me....personal life, church and work! It was as though everything has been dropped into the blender and it is just a matter of time before everything explodes! There are just many things that is beyond my control. And basically I have 2 choices, to hold on to the pressures and fear of the unknown or just learning to let go and let God!

Charles R. Swindoll in his devotional book, "Growing Strong in the Seasons of Life" mentioned that it requires maturity to just let go, turn lose and release the squeeze. And for that very moment, I felt so immature as I just wanted so much to hold on to all that I can. But what truly sparked me is this...

"We are often hindered from giving up our treasures out of fear for their safety. But wait. Everything is SAFE which is COMMITTED to our GOD. In fact nothing is really safe which is not so committed. No child. No job. No romance. No friend. No future. No dream."

And he went on to give the example of Abraham being asked to offer his son, Isaac (read Genesis 22: 1-18) and how God, the Jehovah Jireh provided the ram when Abraham obeyed God.

But then as I post this and as I learn to just surrender, I know that everything is safe in His hands. And I am constantly walking in His fields of grace, dwelling in His wonderful favor.

* God showed His favor this week as He held back depressing news concerning work and also a client's satisfaction over the arrangement done! What else can I say but that God is in control and that His favor was upon me and the situations I'm in!! ;) All glory to God!!

Gateway City Church Dedication Service

2008-01-31T12:00:00.001+08:00

The very much awaited and anticipated event has finally arrived...27 January 2008! With just a very small core group and church of 7 adults and 3 kids, it seem quite an impossible task to host 100++ invited guests for such an auspicious occasion. From physical arrangement, refreshments, ushering, worship leading, media, entertaining guests etc etc.......it's truly impossible in the eyes of men BUT with God, everything is certainly possible!!

It was truly an awesome atmosphere with presence of friends and family from various churches, organizations, and not to mention, there were some from other nations too! And God just rained down His glorious presence. The speaker, Bro. Ooi Chin Aik brought words of encouragement and challenge - the "5 S's" that the church should be......Spontaneous, Strategic, Selective, Shut-in with God and Sending.

No doubt it was a tiring day physically but no complains.....truly no complains. God was re-teaching me to serve this season. Ephesians 6:7...to serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men. =) Oh yea, I'm also thankful to those who came and serve alongside us during the day...the LiveWire Team, friends from Wesley Methodist Church, Paul, Henry, Christina...THANK YOU!

Here are some pics....

In the Beginning...

2008-01-11T12:07:00.001+08:00

Year 2008...a new year, a new beginning! I'm excited for the fact that I'm in partnership with God for His work at Gateway City Church (log on to http://www.gatewaycity.com.my for more info). We started meeting last September on site for prayer. The church is officially starting in January 2008. We'll be having our Church Dedication Service on 27 January 2008. Something to look forward to....

On our very first official Sunday Service, Pr. Edward shared on Genesis 1...In the beginning... and how everything started with GOD! God spoke...and there was light! God spoke...and the earth was formed! God spoke...living creatures and plants filled the earth! God spoke...and here we are living on this earth! Everything comes from God and God alone. And how I was reminded...perhaps more than just a reminder...how my eyes were opened to see that God is the beginning! It is Him who makes all things possible. It is about the God factor! And it is God who will make things happen in Gateway City Church! =)

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

2008-01-01T15:05:00.001+08:00

As I bid farewell to 2007, here's the good, the bad and the ugly of 2007!

THE GOOD! (in random order)
1. God's grace and favor upon my life each and every day!
2. Having my inner circle people to inspire and challenge me to get back on track spiritually! =)
3. Mal Fletcher and his book 'Making God Famous' that cause me to be conscious about living my life right so that people would know God
4. The movie 'Evan Almighty' and the lessons learned! (to be nicer to people, be it friends, foe or strangers!)
5. Celebrating birthdays with family... I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!
6. Seeing God's faithfulness upon my sister and her family in their Australia trip
7. Holiday with family in Bukit Tinggi and also Singapore
8. Learning to 'homeschool' my nieces during the holiday at Singapore....personally felt that it was FUN and ENRICHING to myself
9. Participating in Gateway City Youth Convention (GCYC) in Singapore organised and sponsored by Faith Community Baptist Church
10. Experiencing God's provision in receiving a love-gift (3x the amount I actually prayed for!) from I don't know who. prior to my GCYC trip
11. Sports Leadership Camp at Cameron Highlands...learned so much!
12. Sharing the sweet victory when Malaysia beat Australia in Asia Pacific Floorball Championship held in Singapore...it was totally AWESOME!
13. God opening door for us to be involved in floorball in a greater scale
14. Taking part in the IFF Floorball Coaching Seminar...truly an eye opener
15. Floorball trip to Sabah and the development that is taking place
16. Contact Sports being nominated and shortlisted for AYA Dream Malaysia awards
17. Contact Floorball Club emerged 2nd runner-up in Dalat League
18. Starting of Gateway City Church at E-Gate
19. Got my desired jacket from parents for Christmas gift
20. Celebrating Christmas with the family...totally different and meaningful....had dinner, singing carols, sharing of word by our very own family member, Pr. Edward and exchanging of gifts...
21. Sister is pregnant again....and I'm all so excited!!!!! Can't wait for sayang to come out....
22. And many many more that I could have possibly forgotten along the way....

THE BAD?
1. I was down and a bit out of touch spiritually for quite some time
2. I was less compassionate and gracious towards people for quite some time too
3. Financially not being able to support my parents yet
4. Putting on weight! Oops...and I'll lose some soon.... =)
5. My humble car (actually the water pump wire and compressor) was bitten and destroyed TWICE by the unlovable rats....the bad was referring to the rats and not my car!
6. Grandma fell sick and can't walk
7. Got stung by a bee

THE UGLY????
Can't think of any! God has and will make all things beautiful in His perfect timing =) As I looked back at 2007, I can only trace everything and I mean EVERYTHING to God's goodness. Indeed, His love never fails.....

Another hour to go...thank you Lord for 2007....and welcome 2008! Blessed new year to all with lots of love! =)

Oh well....

2007-10-20T18:21:00.001+08:00

I know it's been long since my last post. Many things happened these few months. Lots of good memories and interesting events....but was just too lazy to blog. =) Let me see...where do I begin? Hmm......Mum's 60th birthday! It was a great one at Traders Hotel. Ate loads of stuff. Cher and Ed commented the next day that they have not seen me ate so much before. Haha...it's RM64/ pax... it'll be silly not to eat! Will share more about mum's birthday in the next post.

I'm right now waiting for Cher to pick me up for a friend's wedding dinner. I'm all dressed up! Just waiting and putting my time to good use! Oh well...I've been reflecting upon lots of things these past few days. And today itself....just can't help thanking God for all that He has done in my life. For without Him, I wouldn't be where I am today. So I'm taking this time to just pay a special tribute to Him who colors my life.... I truly wanna thank God for....

1. Parents...for their labor of love in bringing me up.
2. Cher and Ed...for their mentoring, their support and guidance.
3. Ko...for his patience towards me. He's the greatest bro!
4. Nieces...the Lynns...they are such a joy! Just looking at them is enough to brighten up my day!
5. Friends....I've to admit I'm not someone who really keeps in touch with friends. But I thank God for giving me friends...friends that have journeyed with me and those who are still walking alongside me.
6. Floorball! I've gained lots from it...mentally, emotionally and physically!
7. Car...yes my humble Kancil...which brings me everywhere and also where I spent most of the time alone, reflecting...
8. My bed, pillows and blanket...I sure miss them when I'm away for trips and camps.
9. My office (right at Pekaka)...sure it's fun having little 'workers' around...they light up my day!
10. Food on the table everyday...it's a sign of God's provision
11. The lovely weather...be it rain or shine...(tho' I'll prefer sunny days)
12. Songs that fill my heart....
13. Entertainment...laughter and jokes....
14. My Nokia 6131...it links me up with ppl...and also the camera and video camera are greatly used to capture my nieces...14. Christmas...a gift from GOD!
15. Christmas...a gift from God!
16...and the list goes on....

There are truly many things to thank God for....and if I were to count them, I'll be writing books on it! =) Perhaps its time we think less of the negative...and begin to thank God for all that He has done and given to us!

You Will Never Walk Alone

2007-06-12T11:12:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: This has got nothing to do with Liverpool! =)

Was reminded of the Chinese show 'Protege' which ended with a question that some of us asked ourselves. Which is worst? Drugs or loneliness? I leave it to you to decide.... but one thing I know and which I want to embrace with my heart, THAT His promise is true! I will never walk alone...never! O Lord...knock some sense into me!!!!!!

Here is a song by Point of Grace...one of my favorite song... YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE

Along life’s road there will be sunshine and rain

Roses and thorns, laughter and pain.

And ‘cross the miles you will face mountains so steep

Deserts so long and valleys so deep,

Sometimes the journey’s gentle

sometimes the cold winds blow (Re - mem - ber)

But I want you to remember, I want you to know

* You will never walk alone, as long as you have faith,

Jesus will be right beside you all the way.

And you may feel you’re far from home,

But home is where He is,

And He’ll be there down every road;

You will never walk alone.

The path will wind, you will find wonders and fears,

Labors of love and a few falling tears.

Across the years there will be some twists and turns,

Mistakes to make and lessons to learn.

Sometimes the journey’s gentle, sometimes the cold winds blow,

But I want you to remember wherever you may go

** Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need;

He will go the distance with you faithfully.
You will never walk alone
He will be right beside you all the way
If you feel you're far from home
He'll be there down every road

You will never walk alone

Thank You JESUS! =)

Happy Anniversary to Edlina!

2007-06-07T15:59:00.001+08:00

Both Ed and Cher (sis in hokkien, that's how I call her) were married 10 years ago on 7 June 1997. It was the grandest wedding I've attended. It may sound rather bias huh? But hey...no! It was the first and grandest wedding in the church I used to attend. When they broke the news that they are going to tie the knot...I was extremely happy for them! At that moment, I was thinking "Finally a wedding is going to take place in my family!"

I remembered following them to several bridal houses to check on bridal gowns and photography. Cher asked me to try a gown for her to see. I didn't try. I was too shy then cos it wasn't me who's getting married. Thinking back...a bit regret *grin* Anyway, if God's willing, I will have my chance! * a big smile* Oh yes, I skipped my college classes when they went for their photo shoot. Ohh...it was fun! I get to see the endless hours of my Cher putting on different costumes, change of make-up and hairstyle, the 'hey keep smiling' shout-out by photographer. It seemed so tiring.....for them of course! Me? I was enjoying myself to the max! When I was a lil' girl, I really love playing dress up. And as I grew older...the passion grew with me! I love the idea of shopping and having new stuff to wear. Who doesn't, right?! It'd be fun if Malaysia has 4 seasons...then I will get to really DRESS UP! Know what I mean? Marvelous! Wait...maybe not! As the saying goes....."the grass is always greener on the other side" so I may be complaining then having to wear so many layers of clothes. Haha....

Okie...back to Edlina....I thank God for bringing them together! Perfect match! They are truly precious, my inspiration! =)

Happy Anniversary Edlina!!! Love you lots!

Spcially dedicated to Ash....

2007-05-31T11:44:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Ash!!! Wish I could be there on your birthday!! Have you gotten your gift from both Koo Koo and I? Like it? There were so many things we wanted to buy but don't know which one so we ended up getting the book for you? Hope you like it! Oh yes, did Nat give you the 9 hugs and kisses? Yup...it's from me~! You're 9 this year. I know you hear this every year... "Wah...last time, Ash so small only...can't belive she's a big girl now. So beautiful..." Yes you are beautiful...since the day I saw you at the hospital. Don't ever think you're not beautiful ok?! Cos you really ARE! Psalm 139 says it all... we are all unique, fearfully and wonderfully made by God! And add-on to that...you are gorgeous, charming, attractive, talented, gifted, smart....etc etc. I thank God for you....and here's a lil' story of you!

Once upon a time (well, 31 May 1998 actually), a lil' girl was born. Her name is Ashlynn Lim May Yen, simply means bright and beautiful, if I'm not wrong =) She's my beloved niece! My sis was suppose to back-up for worship that Sunday, but she ended in hospital to give birth to her first daughter, also the first grandchild in the family of the Lim's and Khoo's. Being the first, she was lavished with loves and gifts from everyone - family members, relatives, church members and friends. She's a joy to the family....and from then on came Nathalynn and Chrisalynn. Ohh...all of them are jewels...PRECIOUS!! And I'm missing them a lot since they left for Australia. Well..actually 1 week before they left, I've already started to miss them! *sob sob* But I'm glad to know they are enjyoing themselves!

Back to Ash... here's her favorite

Fav. Color: Pink

Fav. Toy: Barbie (she has quite a number of them...was once my dream to own many Barbies but she beat me!)

Fav. Food: Pasta...and lots of CHEESE (Ash, can I ask you once question? Why do you like cheese so much???? Hahaha...gotcha! )

Fav. Fruits: Mango, strawberries, plums, durians....

Fav. Drinks: Mango juice

Fav. Sports: Floorball

Fav. Pastimes: Dancing....and dancing...and dancing....

Fav. Shows: Bring It On 2, High School Musical... (anything to do with dance, cheerleading and ice skating!)
Hmmm...what other favorites.....I'll ask her....

My prayer for you: May you continue to grow beautifully in the Lord, and that your beauty will reflect the glory of the Lord. As you grow older, may you grow closer and deeply in love with God. And that you will live a life of holiness and righteousness before God and men. I pray that your dreams and desires will be fulfilled in His time and that you will continue to explode in your creativity, in dance, and become an instrument of worship to God. And that you will inspire many to be drawn closer to God as well. Amen! Love you lots! MUAKSSSSSSS

Celebration of a Union!

2007-05-25T22:42:00.001+08:00

Sounds very political, huh? Nope...the title does not suggest the union of 2 countries, signing of memorandum, peace treaties etc etc.

Well, this is basically the story of my beloved parents! 24th May 1970.....that was the day they got married. How they ended up as husband and wife? It was dance. Yes, dance brought them together. Both of them loved dancing (ballroom dancing!) and if I'm not wrong, dad used to teach dance at mum's place. Mum wasn't his student. It was something like...uhm... dad used mum's house to teach dancing?! I guess mum must have quite a big hall in the house then. Anyway.... mum said that dad didn't give her a very good impression then and she couldn't remember how they fell in love....haha...just a secret she don't want to reveal qua *wink wink* It's funny how people got together huh...especially when one doesn't have good impression of the other. But I believe it was love that brought them together...love that surpasses the flaws and faults of one another. Dad isn't exactly a very romantic man. He doesn't shower mum with flowers and gifts. No Valentine's candle light dinner. Hey...but they do celebrate their anniversary - simple holiday out of Penang. They have been to Langkawi, Melaka....where else? Hmm.... Anyway, romantic or not, dad is definitely very loving...just that he expresses love in a different way.

I remembered last Saturday, we went for dinner and shopping at Gurney. As usual dad ordered food for mum (well, dad is always the one ordering food for mum). Dad got her Claypot Chicken Rice....and it's amazing to see how dad served mum (stirring the rice....making sure that the rice, soya sauce, black sauce etc etc are evenly mixed) and off he went to order his own food. I looked at mum...and she smiled. Blessed woman! Not that she can't do it herself but both of us admit, mum is blessed to marry dad. I've seen most of my relatives, aunties and uncles whereby the wives were the one serving the husband. Typical Chinese men!

And then, every night without fail, dad will sort out mum's daily medicine (vits, supplements etc etc) and will remind her to take medicine. Believe me...without reminder, most of the time mum will forget. And dad will take her shopping almost every other day, knowing that that's one of mum's favorite past time. And dad will buy mum her favorite food...sometimes to the extend of going round the 'whole' Penang to get the best hokkien mee, char koay teow etc etc. And dad....dad is simply loving (not romantic) but practical!

Love is practical! Yes...LOVE is to be demonstrated through actions and not by mere words! That reminded me of how God demonstrated His love to us by sending His Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross for us so that we may not perish/ die but have eternal life (paraphrase...John 3:16) And if love is practical, are we then ready to die for our loved ones? Are we ready to demonstrate that love? Maybe not to the extend of dying for our loved ones? Are we ready to go an extra mile, beyond our comfort zone to show love to those whom we profess to love? Maybe...this is a lil' something for us to think about?

Ok, back to my parents! Mum is a gem!!!!! She devoted her life to raise the family when she got married to dad. Some said she's very lucky, she didn't have to work at all. Well, she 'works' at home. She labors with love to bring the whole family together, making sure everything is in order, good food on the table....and love shared amongst each other! I thank God for bringing my parents together. For without my parents, there will be no us (sis, bro and I).

Love you...MUM and DAD! *muaks*

*** Oh yes, we celebrated the anniversary as a family. Dad said, it's more 'happening' that way (Cher and family, we miss you all a lot!) Guess where we celebrated? Gurney Drive! Mum wanted to eat her favorite 'sotong bakar'. Ohhh....it was truly a feasting time! Sotong bakar, fish 'n' chips, rojak, sharksfin soup, fried oyster, ais kacang, grilled squid, watermelon juice, soya bean etc! Total: RM61 (not too expensive for anniversary celebration huh?!)

My First Entry!

2007-05-23T23:21:00.001+08:00

I grew up reading novels about romance, wrote a couple of books on that and thought I want to be an author. But it never came to pass for a couple of reasons, maybe more. Firstly I don't possess the ability to write anything 'flowery' that will make people wanting to sit down and read my book. Secondly, it takes time, patience and lots of inspiration to write one! An inspiration is the hardest to come by and the most important, I would say in writing a book! Wait....why am I on the subject of being author, writing books etc etc?!

Uhm... *Flashback*....About two weeks ago, while talking to Ed on msn, I asked him about whether he has started writing his book...and his reply, "Will probably start writing when you come and join us in Australia." Well, Ed and my dear sis as well as their princesses are in Down Under right now for their sabbatical! A sabbatical of 2-months long!!! I'm missing them like crazy! Some people said I'm being silly cos my sis and family are only going to be away for 2-months! But hey, separation is not easy considering the fact that we are very closely knitted as a family. With them being away...I've got loads of responsibilities on my shoulder (not that I'm complaining, ok?!) but really, I miss them A LOT! Anyway, their purpose to be in Australia - to rest, to relax, to refresh, to holiday, to seek the Lord for direction, to write their books. Even their eldest daughter, Ash is planning to write one. Their youngest, Chrisa already wrote a few...so as the "ee-ee" (aunty in hokkien), how can I not set an example *wink wink* So here I am, totally inspired by this family of writers! Did I mention the word "inspired"? Oh...truly!

So I've decided to take on this challenge in marking down my journey in life....to tell my story.....by starting to blog first, then a book perhaps in the future! =)